Mad Mabel
By Sally Hepworth
I really wanted to love this book because the premise is
interesting, but honestly, listening to it has felt like a bit of a chore.
Between the different timelines, all the characters, and the
pieces of the mystery that slowly come together, I found myself getting lost
and having to work to keep track of what was happening. I would drift off for a
few minutes and come back wondering if I'd missed something important. Maybe
it's me, but I honestly don't know how people listen to audiobooks while doing
other things and manage to take it all in!
The story centers on 81-year-old Elsie Fitzpatrick, a rather
prickly, fiercely independent woman living a quiet life in a Melbourne
neighborhood. But Elsie has a secret: she was once Mabel Waller, a teenage girl
who became infamous as “Mad Mabel” after being convicted of murder. When an
elderly neighbor, Ishaan, is found dead, her carefully maintained anonymity
begins to unravel, and suddenly the police, the media, and the neighborhood are
all interested in her past.
As the story unfolds, we move between Elsie’s present-day
life and her troubled childhood, learning about the experiences and
relationships that helped shape the girl who would become Mad Mabel. There are
complicated family dynamics, childhood trauma, questions about guilt and
justice, and friendships that become important lifelines. In the present, Elsie
also finds herself drawn into the lives of her younger neighbors, including a
curious little girl named Persephone and her mother, Roxanne. As more of Elsie’s
history comes to light, you start questioning how much of the story people
think they know is actually true.
Beneath the mystery is a deeper story about loneliness,
trauma, the need to feel loved, and how our past shapes who we become. The more
I learned about Mabel, the more I wanted to understand her, even when I wasn't
always sure I was following every twist and turn.
But there was one thought in particular that really stuck
with me: how funny it is that the things we dream of having or desperately want
sometimes don't bring us the joy we imagined they would.
Isn't that the truth?
When we're younger, we tend to believe happiness is waiting
for us somewhere in the future.
I'll be happy when I have the lake house. I'll be happy when
I get that promotion. I'll be happy when I buy my dream car. I'll be happy when
I find the right person. I'll be happy when I finally have the life I've been
working toward.
And then you get there. You accomplish the things you worked
so hard for. You feel proud, grateful, even excited. But the enormous, lasting
sense of fulfillment you imagined doesn't always arrive. Or it arrives for a
little while, and then life settles back into its ordinary rhythm.
I think maturity is realizing that something can be
wonderful and still not make you happy in the way you expected it to.
That doesn't mean you made the wrong decision. It means
you've discovered that the thing you wanted and the feeling you hoped it would
give you aren't necessarily the same thing.
Sometimes we spend so much energy getting the life we
thought we wanted that we don't stop to ask whether the life we've built
actually feels good to live in.
Maybe the next chapter isn't about acquiring another thing
or achieving another goal. Maybe it's about figuring out what makes an ordinary
Tuesday feel meaningful. What makes us curious? Who makes us laugh? What gives
us something to look forward to when we wake up in the morning?
Maybe it's a new adventure, a creative pursuit, a
friendship, or something we haven't even discovered yet. We don't have to
abandon the lives we've built to want something more from them.
There's a difference between being happy with what you've
achieved and being fulfilled by how you're living. I think that distinction can
take a lifetime to understand.
As for the book itself, I struggled with the pacing and
shifting timelines. I suspect this might be a book that's easier to follow on
the page than in audio, at least for me.
Even though the listening experience hasn't been especially
enjoyable, the story has given me something to think about, and I suppose
that's worth something.
Three stars for the book, but perhaps a little more credit
for the thoughts it left me with.



